Ho Ho Ho ~ Merry Christmas ~ Ho Ho Ho

Santa with the greatest present of my life <3 
Look at her, look at how happy she is. :D
She was soooo happy to see santa. :D
The smile on her face brought me happiness. :D
This is my FIRST Christmas with HER. <3 
My Christmas wish this year : To count more christmas with my baby. (:
ILoveHer. :D
ILoveYouBaby, ALOT ALOT ALOT .:D muaaaaaaacks <3 

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 Merry Christmas Baby, Ho ho ho <3

I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU.

I miss youuuuuuuuuuu & I love youuuuuu babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. :D

V'star

Yesterday, went to watch v'star with jenarth, dumitra, asffaq & shahnas. 
Baby was suppose to be there but just because of some problem she went back home :( 
Just to surprise her, I wore the red checkered shirt.. but yeah, I didn't expect it to end this way, ..
I feel very bad for her, held back all my tears. Even now, I'm holding back all my tears.. 


Eveything happens for a reason & I hope it happened  for a good reason ,.. <3 
ILOVEYOU ~ <3






oh & I'm gonna meet her parents today!! :3
SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :/ 
Wish me luck! 
K bye for nowwwwwwww(: 
<3

I MISS YOU :/

Missing her ...so much ,

Just saw her yesterday & I'M MISSING HER SO DAMN BADLY :( 
I've never missed anyone so much , .. too much of love? yeah, i think so . 
I want her to be in my arms, everyday, every minute, every second, I know I'm being selfish but yeah, I can't control :/
COME BACK TO MY ARMS BABYYY ~ <3
ILOVEYOU(: 
<3

Just wait baby, I will ♥

Sucks :/

I SUCK AT EVERYTHING. 
Yesterday, I had the BIGGEST fight with my mum. 
And EVERYDAY I'm making my baby cry. 
WHAT KIND OF GUY AM I MAN?! 
Making my happiness of my life being upset EVERYDAY.
So many empty promises, so many lies :/
She deserves way better! ._. 




I REALLY SUCKKKKKKKKKKK. 
:( 

She said she'll be back by 9 but it's already 930. 
She's not back yet.
Hope she's fine.
I'm missing her badly :/ 
Faster come back to my arms baby! 


Much love, 
xoxo (:

♥

I don't need no supermodels, no miss universe or whatsoever to be my girlfriend. All I need is you my dearest ♥

Dumitra asked me if I can come downtown east with jenarth & her? 0.o weird .. 
But yeah, anyways, I don't know if I should go? Will baby be upset if I go? :/ 
I want to go because I've seriously been rotting at home for this past one month , . _ .
It's either we will be going tomorrow or wednesday? If it's tomorrow, I cant' ask her if I can go or not? 
But if it's wednesday, at least I can ask her. The thing is, she surely won't be able to come with us? 
I want her to come :/ haizz, nvm. Hopefully things will be better ^^ 
I need to go & eat my lunch now!
Bye(:

Missing her ...

My baby went to Malaysia yesterday, she only will be back tomorrow evening ... hmph ): sobsob :/
Yesterday, at about 11pm, I was using laptop then I totally forgot that she went to Malaysia, I dialed her number in my house phone. Luckily I didn't call! I miss herrr :/ hope she's doing fineeee.
BUT NEVERMIND, SHE'LL BE BACK TMRW :D 
KBYE.

LIKE , SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TRUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE </3

Sorry

Sorry for hurting you with words baby, I really didn't mean it. I'm so sorry <3 
ILOVEYOU <3

Today was quite boring, was rotting at home -.-
She went to her aunty's house, was webcaming with her. We were suppose to go for a birthday party, but didn't. 
When I was webcaming with her, she was beside her cousin watching The Incredibles :) I was really very jealous :/ I want to watch movies with her late night, the small cuddles, the cute laughters.. I want everything, I really miss her a lot. I hope I can see her soon ^^ I miss her !! :/ 


that's it. 
Much love , 
xoxo,
<3

Another small message for you baby(:

Is it the last day? :/

Just finished eating after coming back home from woodleigh. Went there to send my sweetie to her friend's house. She looked so beautiful today :D . First, we met at amk hub. I already started tearing when I saw her at first but, I tried to cover up. So yeah & then went to J8 to buy presents for her parents because it's their wedding anniversary coming Saturday ; 19.11.11 :) . Yeah, before that we went into breadtalk coz she was hungry.Then she bought pizza! She was soo cute :D dancing her & there. Then after buying & all that, we went to board the bus to go to woodleigh. Then I told her everything that was on my mind. Then she also said what was on her mind. Obviously her decision will be the right one(: We decided not to talk to each other very often. We can text each other whenever we want but we will talk on the phone only on alternate days. So we were talking, then I don't know why but I started to admire her, the she talks, the way she smiles .. out of control a few teardrops rolled down my cheeks. She noticed that I was tearing so she hugged me <3 then after a while, I realized that she was crying too. So, I just hugged her tighter & wiped the tears off. Yeah, then we got down the bus, I held her hand, then we started walking. The only thing that was on my mind was that today might be the last day I'm gonna see her this year :/ then I went her to the bus stop. EVERYTHING was stopping me from going away. Her hair tangled to my watch, I tripped over the floor :/ like it was the destined to be feeling. Then I gave one last hug. I kissed her & we had our one last tongue fight :/ Then I forced myself to go, but I can't stop turning back to look at her. Then when I was walking to the opposite bus stop, was tearing when I was on my way there. Sat there & just stared at her. She called me back to her. OMG, I SWEAR I WAS DAMN HAPPY. I went back to her, wiped all my tears before going. Sat down beside her & talked to her until her friends came. Then, she just left :/ I told myself  not to get emo. Then the bus came, I took it home. On my way home, I was thinking about how am I going to go thru this. Then I decided to go to the gym on alternate days with my cousin, it's a good time to workout & divert my mind. (: 


And, she gave me her towel. It's with me now :D <3 will be hugging it every night to sleep with her on my heart <3 ILOVEYOU BABY <3 0304 #trueloveneverdies <3

Gonna go & meet her later, for the last time this year? :/ seriously couldn't take it. I can't even imagine a week without her. How am I gonna bear the pain?! there are gonna be so many fake smiles & so many forced laughters .. My happiness is slowly fading away.. Hopefully, I can see her on my birthday next year, that will be the greatest gift ever, seriously... <3 
Although I kinda lost hope on wishes.. 
I really wish we can be back together & everything will be back to normal soon , iloveyou <3
Not 11:11 yet , but that's my wish for 11:11 today , :/ 

Today went quite okay. First day of officially being on diet. Not that easy, but I tried 
Gonna do my POA homework later in the night, I hope :P & yeah, hopefully I can meet her tomorrow. Got something to tell her, quite important. But the decision is up to her. I can't & I won't force her (: 
Tomorrow may or may not be the last time I'm gonna meet her this year, omg :/ Will miss her A LOT :/ I don't know how am I gonna go through this, it will be hard, very hard in fact. But no choice right. 
hmmm :/ yeah, that's all for today. Nytes :)




1007 : I really hope everything changes for the better , Iloveyou <3 (': 

A message for you, baby (:

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Woke up by her text like every other day, (: 
Heard her sweet voice on the phone, but this time it was a bit different. I can't exactly explain why was it different, but I just know it is. When I was talking to her half way, my stomach started to ache , what a turn off -.- yeah, then went to bathe. After that went to the room to change, I saw my bag, opened it, saw the letter she gave me. I opened it & my heart just dropped :/ because she wrote it using crayons, everything she wrote vanished coz of the rain that day. Should have been more careful but yeah, nvm. Her words are stitched in my heart <3 I really hope things change for the better because I don't want us to go through this pain everyday. 


Okay, as I said today is the day that I'm gonna start being on diet. So once again goodluck to me :D 
Will be blogging later, bye (: 


Much love , <3

DIET

I'm gonna be on diet from tomorrow onwards & I also will start exercising. I need to toughen up my body. So yeah, goodluck to me :)

It's Impossible

11/11/11 11:11 ; The day that I will never forget in my life. The best day that I spent with her. But I swear I didn't expect the next days to end like this :/ it's very painful. I'm really broken, I'm cheering myself up. She changed my whole life. They say that nothing is impossible but from this, I learnt that there are few things that are impossible ; to forget her, not to love her & to let her go. I promised her & I also promise myself not to let her go. I'm really not letting her go. Everything happens for a reason, I hope the reason behind this is to get her to be all mine bcoz if it is, it's really worth it. I need her in my life. I'll wait for you baby, I really will. Things will be better, I pray everyday for us. All these prayers won't be wasted. I really have the feeling that we are destined to be. A lot of people also have told me that. I'm really lucky that I've met you. We will be happy together, I know we will. I'll be there for you, always. Loveyou baby <3